What a life! - why am i dont what im doing?

I keep sitting back and thinking why is my life as it is?????

I think well im 550miles from any where that I actually know. Iv met hundreds of people now but I dont feel I know any of them. No one is remotely like me. I know people from the south east, I know people from public schools but still no one is like me. I find that everyone else is just taking it easy and oh it will all come (in time). Hell it probably will but I dont want to wait waiting is one of the most boring and pointless things in the world. Why cant things happen today, I wana ring my bank but i have to wait till tomorrow. I want to do this or go there but i cant because everyone else would prefer to just sit back and relax. AHAHAHHA. Im pulling my hair out.

'Im at Uni' if you asked any of my teacher up untill i was about mmm 15 they would all say "no, he will never be interested in going to uni." When I told my parents in the L6 i want to go to uni they were like WTF. Yet here i am at one of the best uni's for my course but you know what i think to myself its a bit of a waste of f***ing time for 4 days of the week. I have NOTHING to do and when i do have something to do its a pothertic essay which is soooo dull. The lecturers have to be some of the most boring people on the planet and some of them dont even know what they are taking about. I feel like jumping up and saying no actualy MR sorry Proffesor/DR/I dont do any thing but academic stuff, and say your wrong get the bloody hell out NOW! But i dont i just sit in line and wait. Then i get my results and they are like lamo I think but there isnt even anything you need to know for a f***ing organisational management essay. GRRR iv had it up to here with uni atm. You see all the figures for people who drop out they chat on tha radio about how the unis must be just taking any old person and you actually find that its just that uni for learning is just rubish! Then to top it off i get a book sent to me by my parents and its pritty much all about my course and they guy just rants about how academic stuff is pointless. "The school of hard nocks is the place to learn" i.e. get out there and do some business to find out about business!

Then i Think well iv got my flying and I fly twice a week it gets me out of the flat that is one of the most foulest places iv been in my life I keep my room door shut perminatly cos the guy opposite stink sooo much youd think he hasnt washed for a millienium but he does everyday man I dont know how is GF copse! Then the place is a tip aswell i keep a strict thing for myself of once iv used something regardless of who owns it i will wash it and put it back in the cupboard THE SAME DAY! Now if eveyone in my flat did that we wouldnt have a problem but they havent washed up in months and it stinks and its baddddd! Back to flying so i fly twice a week down at RAF leuchars so that i can get out of the flat get a few nice meals meet a few decent people and do some flying that is awsome even have a few jokes with the pilots that teach us. Then they go and skrew me by stopping saturday flying but i didnt find this out till i was half pissed infront of the boss of the squadron so had a bitch with him about it for a bit lolololol. Anyway so now i only get to fly once a week cos i cant skip that many lectures otherwise life might actually become too enjoyable. grrr. Its a bad day for me and next week doesnt seem to be looking any better I cant wait till the kr3w party so i can talk to some decent friends! Love you guys see you all at easter!!!